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CagedI don't care what you say
I don't care what you think
I don't care if you cry
Didn't I tell you
That to me
you don't matter?

I don't want to stay
I don't want to go
I don't want to be burning
I don't want to be drowning
Falling back down to my knees
Begging to stand up

I'm sick, sick, sick
Dying inside, suffocating
Under the chains
Hiding in your veins

When did I say I didn't care?
'Cause I was lying then
Only hoping I could know
Something other than black

You are the chains
You hold the keys
And I'm caged
Falling back down to my knees
Begging to stand up

I don't care anymore
Simple questions“Yes another,” they said, a smile stained on the faces of pain.
We’re all staring into the mirror, reflecting nothing but the truth.
But which is true?

With this universe surrounded by wealth,
One must ask what it’s all worth.
My questions must be because of my jealousy.
Why do we get emotions?

Just listen to what they want you to become.
A perfect by the book character.
Following the signs, to a dead end.
The road must go somewhere, right?

Those material objects, that you call friends.
Are just a matter of texts.
Simply stating what you wanted to hear.
What is that we yearn for?

“My world is fine” a
I WantI want to feel
the magic
the hope
the emotions
of sweet pure love

I want to feel
the warm embraces
the soft kisses
the beating of our hearts
all the promises of love

I want to see
the beauty
the sweetness
the happiness
of love

I want to see
the heart of my lover
the best and worst of love
the relationship last
all the time it should

It's not too much to ask
Snow White SyndromeI seem to have forgotten the sound of my own heartbeat
Splitting apart my limbs I've found the source of my insanity
Coiled around veins and arteries
Star dust and a lazy man’s drug
Has put me to sleep under fictitious pretenses
Of forbidden apples and two faced prince charming’s
Mind, oh MindSmiley face, smiley face, can't you ever see?
So much to be sad about, so much that could be
Going wrong for everyone, going wrong for you.
Smiley face, smiley face, don't you feel it too?

Sad face, sad face, can't you ever tell?
So much could be going great, going oh so well
Sad face, sad face, can't you ever see?
Life is spend much better when your thinking thoughts of glee.

Mind, oh mind, why can't you agree?
Thinking everything at once is slowly killing me...
.I stare at the screen, waiting for some burst of inspiration to rain upon me like a meteor shower sent straight from the gods of literature heaven.

Nothing.

A sigh escapes my lips, and I haphazardly bash random buttons of the keyboard, watching as the blank document before me is littered with an incoherent placement of characters. The monotone click-clack seems to just resonate with the narcoleptic beating of my heart, further fueling my senseless crusade.

Where has all my writing gone?

It feels like it was just sucked right out of my soul. Ideas constantly plague my mind, yet all I can do is write them down. When I go to type them out, n
RiotThe children have broken into riot,
They see a frivolous thing on a political shelve
And are demanding that their parents buy it—
Unaware of the blood-price of dreams half-understood
They lash out in mass, so no one is to blame
And claim that they are just "misunderstood"
As they set the world aflame.

Every cent James earned he put into that store
Its windows now smashed, its inventory gone
He stands in a frame, the door now on the floor
And wonders on the time spent to build his little dream…
How will he provide for the family he adores?
When every cent James earned he put into that store.

There is a little blue banda
ListenCan you hear me
Listen
Listen to my cries
Hear me
Feel my pain
See your neglect
Understand what you've put me through
Hear me roar
My anger bouncing off the wall
My sadness ringing in
Your deaf ears
Can't you hear me
Do you just not care
Listen to me
Listen
Don't walk away
I'm not finished
If only you'd hear me
If only I could make you see
Why won't you listen
Why don't you care
Do you not see the tears
I'm shedding
You're the one that's made to care
It's your job
Why can't you just listen

Maybe you can't hear me
Yeah
That's it
I'm just not loud enough
Pursuit of HappinessI've been constantly wondering
Why my heart wasn't content
It kept sending me messages
But I never knew what they meant
So I set out on a search
I had to find the real me
And figure out exactly what it is I'm meant to be

And I had to take off, I just needed to go
No idea where my heart may roam
I just need to find a place that I can call home
Where I don't feel so impossibly alone

I ran down the street through the masses of people
Looking for my friend's house with a steeple
"He must know the secret to success,
All of his stuff is imported, and it's the absolute best."
As he opened the door, and I looked inside
Things were st
I am a monsterI am a monster
in this darken world
No one wants to be near me
as i cant control myself

I am a monster
of so many sizes
a monster on the inside
but trying to control my anger

Living in my darken life
loving all morbid things
i am a monster
and a demon from hell

No one wants to be near
this wicked monster
no one wants to be near me
as my dark side is out of control

Loving my black
loving my eyeliner
I am a monster
from the demon hell

I was born to live in!
Love To KillHe whispered in my ear, "Baby can I hug you around the neck?
Your eyes really brighten up when you cry,
Judging by the marks on your wrist you already want to die."

Trying to recover and stop loving you,
But my heart has a mind of its own,
And I can never find better then you.

"You deserve everything that's coming for you.
Everything you do makes me rageful,
I can barely stand to see you breathe.
Now blow me a kiss as you're on your knees."

Each bruise is a mistake, and truly made of love.
I know how his heart of stone really feels,
I just have to mine through the bitterness.

"You won't ever leave,
Don't you know what my dad did to me?
Yo
ExistenceBroken, empty promises, a world so dull and dead
Leaving me to suffer as I hang upon this thread
Tears of glass begin to fall, a heartbeat made of stone
I was left to struggle for a worthless, lovely throne

Dreadful, lost emotions, slowly flowing through my veins
Aching thoughts and torture causing fatal bits of pain
Shadows swallow all I was and all I am to be
Slicing off my wings, and now demanding I be free

Poison sneaking through my breaths and deep into my soul
Pieces lost have been replaced to make a damaged whole
Anger rushing through my mind, for me, for them, for this
I have felt emotion for a thought that can't exist…
Poor EyesBeautiful eyes that know nothing but lies,
And the feeling to die a bit inside every day.
She knows it has to be this way,
But she still fights.
Look me in the eyes,
And say you would have the courage to do the same.
None of this came,
To her in one day,
It all had to build up over years and years and years.
Every few weeks a new fear would develop.
Perhaps of a person or an action.
She drew herself away from all things loving,
Shoving herself towards the even darker side of life.
This just made her fight even harder,
And made her see the worst in everything,
Now she's giving up.
She's lost the courage she's been forced to keep,
She weeps in
What You WantMaybe you want them to notice
Maybe you want them to see
Maybe you want them to care about
How you’re lost and lonely me.

Maybe you want them to ask
Maybe you want them to know
Maybe you want them to care about
How your happiness is a show.

Maybe you want them to quiet
Maybe you want them to listen
Maybe you want them to care about
How your blood does glisten.

Maybe you want them to leave you
Maybe you want them to die
Maybe you want them to care about
How your life’s just a lie.
I'm the little girlI'm the little girl
who doesn't sleep very well

I'm the little girl
Who writes in the dark

I'm the little girl
Who barely see's what's going down

I'm the little girl
With the pills in her hand
who doesn't know what it's like to be gone
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It's not humanWhen we are alone, something inside us dies.
 It's not human, what takes us over.
Although we may enjoy it.
It's not human, what takes us over.
The unspeakable, the horror, and the pain.
 It's human what takes us over.
You listen to lies, let it take you over. LET IT CONTROL YOU!

Open your eyes; you run in terror,
But you cannot hide.
It's taking over- getting closer.
Little do you know
That it likes this game,
That it's taking over- it's dead behind.
You hold your breath,
But your in its sight.
It's taking over- pointing at you.
And it's whisperng lies, stealing your mind.
You find yourself giving in.

You close you
PowerlessFriendship is a beautiful word!
But it clearly, is an over used one.
That brink of trust,
Was soon crushed.
But the beauty is; it made me stronger.
You may not have learned a thing.

You think I am insane.
I think I am just viewing the world in different eyes.
So, you know who I am on the inside.
What power do you gain from it?

It's silly,
How we have this way of thinking that knowing a secret, makes us higher then the rest.
That crown drawn over your head, means nothing.
See the illusions erased.
You can't say a word, shocked that you have no power.

So I trusted you once, spill my secrets too the world.
Laugh as they
Back to you againThis path was once so beautiful.
The past will always haunt us.
Can I really trust you? It seems so unsteady.
Once again, Ill run to you.
They tell me not too.
But you are the one for me I swear.

Am I really so stupid?
Again I screwed myself over, with you.
Ended up like crumpled up paper on the ground.
Throw me in the recycle bin, because you will just use me again.

So you call me back?
Yes I will follow you, but will I enjoy it?
I have died before.
All of it was because of you.

But no one else will even try.
To look past the difference, that offsets me from 'them'.
You did once feel it too right?
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Grip my neck tight and don’t let it go.
      Forgetting to let me breathe.

So I can taste blood, as I bite my lip.

Today is the day I please him.
With my innocent body.
As
    you
      rip
        apart
          my
            soul

“Admit you like it”
Rip my heart out, and drink the remains.

Then chain me to the bed,
    a neck with scars.

“Oh my oh my, you've been such a naughty girl”
Pitied by the daytime, it’s when vampires like you sleep.

“Oh my oh my, you've been such a naughty girl”
I just want to rip out your wicked heart.

Please forgive these tears running down my cheeks,
I swear I’ll devoid myself of all emotion.
Ah, I will moan when you command.
Listening to every will.


“I love you”
It hurts so much, the whips and chains.
I hate being tied down like this.


“I love you too.”
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~arualcat Mar 17, 2013
I really like this poem :) It is hard, direct and beautiful.
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~Zaiav Mar 19, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you!! :D
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~paws720 Mar 16, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
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~Zaiav Mar 19, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
<3
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Mood: Love ~zelaeii Mar 5, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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FINALLY I AM RESPONDING!
You are simply amazing, don't ever stop writing!! And I love the visuals on this one too, they add a lot to the piece. WONDERFUL!
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~Zaiav Mar 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
DWAA Thanks
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~FaerieChozen Mar 1, 2013
I just want to say I loved this poem. Also, poetry is one of the most beautiful types of art to me because not only does the artist get to express their art but the reader also can not help but to interpret in whatever way it hits home to them. I, when reading this, did not conclude that it was about a physically abusive relationship or that it glorified any type of relationship. I identified with because, to my mind, it was reminiscent of a relationship that was emotionally and spiritually abusive. The physical descriptions to me were very sexual and seemed as if, like KariTBB suggested, the relationship had aspects of BDSM that the subject did not enjoy but participated in due to insecurities and the controlling nature of the relationship. Regardless, that is MY interpretation as the reader and says nothing about the artist and everything about me. Zaiav... you are an amazing poet and I look forward to reading many more of your works. If you are creating such strong emotions in readers (regardless of if they try to say otherwise... if they felt the need to comment and "chastise" you then you created a strong reaction) you are doing something oh so very right!!!! Have a wonderful weekend!
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~Zaiav Mar 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much. I mean, seriously thank you with all my heart.
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~DoAnAileronRoll Feb 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Your literature has just been featured in an article of the dA Gazette! [link]
Great work on it!
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~Zaiav Feb 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks~
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