I'm doing this all for you

Please forget that I am here, but don't forget that I once existed.
This world I wanted to abandon has now embraced me, in the most loving of ways.
Forgetting my old emotions, I embarked on this new journey in life.

But instead of being welcomed.
I was destroyed on the spot.
Fighter planes gunning me down.

Once again I found myself at a roadblock.
Pretending that the exit behind me didn't exist.
Nor did the signs leading me in the right way.

Instead I ran straight into the bullets.
Pretending that I could take them.
That I was made of steel.
I ignored the cries telling me to turn back.

Unable to close my eyes from this fearful sight.
The sight of my own demise.